One small step for MY SANITY, one giant leap for THE REST OF MY LIFE.
You weren’t my first thought upon waking up this morning, you were like my 43rd thought which means you crept into my brain about 5 minutes after I got out if bed.. thats mighty generous time wise because my thoughts go quite rapidly especially in the early am <and thankfully I now control them for the most part so I don’t have to coax my brain to sleep every night as was the norm for a lot of years> but you weren’t my first thought so thats progress. I did that without his help and really in spite of his deterrents he’d always lay in my path when i was doing well and finding my independence more so/growing spiritually and loving me more.
So screw you and your gaslighting tactics and withholding love and affection to keep me in your twisted need for complete control, [name removed cause that was rude Jess damn let others stay private] <previously (and now still gonna be *edit*) Alex but fuck him Bailey … I mean bailing and then leading me on! Worse yet confusing and leading on Hope when she’s been through enough and then some!!> you don’t deserve to be part of our amazing family anyway.
100th post!!n Correction NOT my 100th Post as I guess one post published 3 or 4 times…. OOOOPpps
Having had a spiritual awakening as the r͟e͟s͟u͟l͟t͟ ͟o͟f͟ ͟t͟h͟e͟s͟e͟ ͟s͟t͟e͟p͟s͟, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
Many of us exclaimed, “What an order!Big Book of AA pg 60
I can’t go through with it.” Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain anything like perfectadherence to these principles. We are not saints. The point is, that we are WILLING to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual PROGRESS rather than spiritual perfection.