Therefore I am

I’m right. You’re right. We may not see eye to eye. Heck we may completely disagree and have polar opposite views and/or ideas but that doesn’t deem either of us wrong. Oh and Franky – he has a set of beliefs that are incongruent with both of the ways we see this dilemma, discussion, idea, topic, belief, situation, perspective, choice, behavior, cause &/or effect, et al ad nauseam. But, you guessed it! Franky is correct in how he feels too!!

You think I’m koo koo for fruity pebbles don’t you? or probably blowing smoke or making nonsensical untrue attributions to the ability for 3 opposing viewpoints to all be true and/or right and/or correct/accurate/etc ad infinitum. Nope although it may sound too good (or bad depending on your reading of the partially filled glass concept) to be true, like a flight of fancy for everyone to accept any/everything so we can all just get along and bury our heads up our naysayers asses rather than hold to our feelsings, thoughts and beliefs. I’m not a fan of sand and definitely keeping my pride and passion for the things I give the time and thought to form an opinion about far from hiding or near wavering to appease one’s sensitivities or for any reason that may give confidence to your take over by heaving niceties and assurances and withering behind into yours or Franky’s shadow! My point of view is important to me – why would I waste my time and energy sharing it if it were not? Oh but trolls….

Those frumpy creatures of the information super highway that seem to have the sole purpose of infuriating the rest of us “civilized” folk just trying to collaborate and find consolment and camaraderie with like minded individuals. And even, if we’re open to our own fallibility and fortunate enough to find an actual human being with compassion and tact and avoid the bridge shadow-dwellers looking for wishful searchers of ideas and growth like ourselves, we can enter into real worthwhile discussion, debate and, dare I say possible collaboration with other sides of the think tank?!

Oh but Jess! how you digress… or have I merely put to the test some of my own ideas.
Maybe a bit of both.

But back to basics, you and I don’t see things even similarly so why do I still say you are right? I don’t agree with your perspective, I think you’re wrong but I know you are right. As am I. And Granky he’s bananas coming from left outfield when we are over here playing basketball on an indoor court! No, I do not agree with Franky either. He’s still right, however. And left field or center court his point of view, idea, thinking belief, et al blah blah blah is of just as much value and worth as mine and yours. Can you dig it? Can you see it? Do you care? And even if so, so what?

So what?
And lady what are we even talking about and how do you know we don’t agree?

Kudos. Heck you, me and Franky -whoever he is- might completely agree and be on the same page. Cool thing about that is even when we do and/or are that page is from a while different (even if oft similar and sometimes nearly identical) book and I don’t doubt our chapters wouldn’t sync up either.

In all reality sometimes I’m not even in the same book as the page I’m on and while I hoard my books and refuse to destroy a single paragraph so far they all read to the tune of The Neverending Story (I genuinely don’t know the first thing about the actual story/novel by that title so I’m using the title for the broad concept alone) of which will end this metaphor and leave it open to you w hat it means (or doesn’t mean) to you.

I love the internet, the world-wide web of ever growing information at my fingertips – literally a click away. And now it is with me everywhere, its portable and not having the capability to find the correct answer is almost stigmatized and so we are all geniuses with all the right answers right there in our pocket or purse or wishfully nowadays for me AT HOME while I try out life with uncertainty again!

Whimsical wonders while wandering . . . wish me luck!

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⚘ A rule I’ve made for myself that has helped me immensely in a lot of ways is that in order to take a stance on something, anything where I am in disagreement with someone else’s perspective I must be able to not only put myself in their shoes but see and appreciate what they see making sense and why one might be inclined to see it in that way. I have to be able to argue either side – or all points if it is more than two clashing ideas – in order for me to stand behind something I believe to be true. It is sort of like playing devil’s advocate with myself but to a bit more thorough of an extent than I do with other people. I drive my 14 year old bonkers sometimes when I do so in our conversations just to get us both thinking on our toes a bit and have to remind her that I am totally in agreeance with her but just helping us see all the sides!
⚘ I watched the movie The Map Of Perfect Tiny Things a few nights ago and was thoroughly impressed with the creator’s genius. I recommend it to all – it may seem a bit teenybopperesque at first or by the cover and cheesiness abounds but in a really good way – so don’t write it off as just some chick flick that you won’t relate to because it has a little something special for everyone to take away from it. Tell me what you think after you see it and I’d love to hear what else you could think to do in that scenario. Or taking that Groundhog Day idea how would you spin it? I thought this concept and all the little nuances within Tiny Things were very fresh and revitalized and I was taken aback with how enthralled and intrigued I was with this movie.
⚘ Something I’m teaching my daughters and making sure to remember myself as I interact with people throughout life when they are being shitty: how a person treats us isn’t a reflection of us and often has nothing to do with us but rather completely about themselves and something they’re dealing with in life. So try not to react in kind with offense or annoyance but instead confuse em with kindness.


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Pocket Mindfulness | rebLog

A few weeks ago this website seemed to just materialize on my screen after my computer finally relinquished control of itself back to me. I don’t know what caused the glitch in my system but it had me at my wits end and then this simple set of words settled my frazzled synapses into a peaceful calm.

I didn’t read any of the blog that night. I saved the website to my desktop and chuckled at my madness and called it a night. That was the first bread crumb leading me back to a positive, healthy mindset when I was adrift for a bit. The concept of keeping small reminders on hand (in my pocket) to remain aware of and in the present and keeping myself grounded. This idea goes hand in hand with reshaping negative and pointless thoughts purposefully to the positive in keeping a healthy uplifting outlook.

I revisited the website frequently but didn’t read any of it still, I was fearful that the mesmerizing effect would not be lived up to possibly and I wasn’t ready to chance losing the magic. About a week ago I decided to give some reading a go and was not disappointed, it is an extensive and enriching guided guide for mindfulness that I keep going back to. Mysterious ways and all I’m paying it forward and sharing it with you.

Pocket Mindfulness | Start Here

I just read A Guide to Self Concept which ties in to where our healthy mindset has to begin and end – self love and honest self acceptance. Keeping my focus on positivity and self awareness is also how I’m taking my thoughts away from the obsession of my addiction. Diving into recovery with the program was having the opposite effect so I’m forging a different path at least to start out. I’m healing my mind and taking control of my outcome so that I can succeed in my recovery.

think yourself confident

Sometimes you’ve got to fake yourself out.

I’m fortunate enough to know that I’m rad, now.

And these are the kinds of things I tell myself so that I do.


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Happiness is a Choice.

My life sucks. I’m still happily me.


I’m a hot mess, my life is upside-down due to things out of my control, but I am happy and back on track in keeping my thinking positive and productive! Learning to love myself and taking back responsibility and control over my thoughts, feelings, and actions has brought about so much personal and spiritual growth for me. For the longest time I was happy in my situation in life but not happy with myself. I had so many insecurities and always felt I needed someone to validate my worth. I swore, even to myself, I was happy with myself and I did like myself enough but I didn’t love myself and I was so hard on myself constantly. It was overwhelming and a lot of what led to getting started in addiction for me. *Put a pin in that for a later date when I have more time.* Flip the script and, I’d give anything, even my happiness (I know I still haven’t totally learned) to have my girls with me, but I am a much happier person and am able to really enjoy life now. So, when things get back to how they should be it’ll be that much better. Which, makes me excited for the work in my recovery to get there. I feel good and I think I’m going to choose to keep thinking this way!