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life goes on…
and on and on and on 𝒶𝐧𝕕 𝒕𝕙𝜶𝙣𝕜 ց𝞸𝞸ｄ𝗇℮𝑠𝕤 ꞙ𝒐ᴦ 𝑡𝚑ａ𝐭 I give up on myself way too soon more often than I’m proud to say but as I do pride myself on honesty I am admittedly lackadaisical by nature and will usually choose the path of least resistance (and effort). The toughest trials in […]
gratitude list
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Therefore I am
I’m right. You’re right. We may not see eye to eye. Heck we may completely disagree and have polar opposite views and/or ideas but that doesn’t deem either of us wrong. Oh and Franky – he has a set of beliefs that are incongruent with both of the ways we see this dilemma, discussion, idea, […]
Progress not Perfection
One small step for MY SANITY, one giant leap for THE REST OF MY LIFE. You weren’t my first thought upon waking up this morning, you were like my 43rd thought which means you crept into my brain about 5 minutes after I got out if bed.. thats mighty generous time wise because my thoughts […]
🆃🅷🅾🆄🅶🅷🆃🅵🆄🅻 🆁🅰🅼🅱🅻🅸🅽🅶🆂
What would you do if you found out the man you were falling in love with was cheating on you? Now say you’ve got ample proof and he goes and gets a restraining order AND calls a bogus DV call against you when he was the one roughing you up? When that fails to get […]
creativity by me
think yourself confident
Sometimes you’ve got to fake yourself out. I’m fortunate enough to know that I’m rad, now. And these are the kinds of things I tell myself so that I do. My life sucks. I’m still happily me. I’m a hot mess, my life is upside-down due to things out of my control, but I am […]
δαλs 2 αηδ 3 – ραss τнιs sнαℓℓ
Forcing myself to spend time awake and involved in my day. My body craving sleep and pulling me toward hibernation.I fight it. Day 2 I felt fine for most, worked an extra 3 hours and only fell out toward the end. Just my friendly coworker noticed and brought me back to focus without consequence. Thankful. […]
0.twenty-two :: after hours jams
Daily Reflection May 22 Step One […]
0.twenty-two :: piqued curiosity | finding N.A.
NA . Meeting One Who’s an addict?What is the NA program?Why are we here?How it works (the stEPS)Twelve TraditionsDaily MeditationWe do recover. Living Clean. 1983 more will be revealed we grow as individuals & as a fellowship sharing, caring, & service face life on its own terms without drugs practice principles in life impact […]
0.sixteen – secrets
My boost in energy the past few days, which I think was due to my wonky work schedule, has come an end. At work today I heard an awesome song that has so many great lines. I feel like she’s telling my story and my change in attitude from constantly worrying about what other people […]
I AM YOUR DISEASE
I Am Your Disease You know who I am, you’ve called me your friend,Wishes of misery and heartache I send,I want only to see that you’re brought to your knees,I’m the devil inside you, I am your disease. I’ll invade all your thoughts, I’ll take hostage your soul,I’ll become your new master, in total control,I’ll […]
page 1 – tell / page 2 – show
Watching a new (new to me) show Crazy Ex Girlfriend and it is full of really poignant life lessons and introspective realizations while still being lighthearted and hilarious. I have a love-hate relationship with the main character and the story-line is my worst nightmare come true and biggest insecurity in my own relationship so it […]
Recovery bLog poSts
4th Floor Accomplishments Take.One Day 14 – can you hear me nowDay 15 – over itDay 16 – betterment Day 18 – capriciousDays 19-21 – circumstantial footprintDay 22 – revised silhouette I won’t regret cause you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be. Kate Nash, merry happy renewed opportunity I’d rather be working […]
0.19 – toxicity is in the air.
Eeeek!8 days I have let lapse without an update anywhere.My bad! Have faith I will get better the more sober I get.I am still sober.I feel like I’ve lost my creative thinking part of my brain. My brain feels a bit mushy the past week. I almost picked up today. If it hadn’t been for […]
0.10 – perSevering with Sobriety
It coursing through my system just gives me a constant buzz of energy flowing throughout my body and engulfs me like a big fluffy comforter but for my whole being. I’m not anxious. I’m not upset with anyone or anything in life. I don’t need my feelings appeased. I feel fine. That home feeling you […]
0.8 – the 5 indecent behaviors of a junkie
My addict behaviors (also the top 5 expected): lying, manipulation, criminality, blame shifting, and verbal abuse. I’m a pretty honest person. Hot damn! that is a lie. Definitely not where my addiction is concerned. Every time I use I have to make and take texts or phone calls that I will need to sanitize from […]
0.7 – iNaNe fLaiR
siLLy abiLitypoINtless INstINctabsUrd geniUsfatuouS SkillS Me.I can type. I can write. I can type what I write. bLogging!weBlog…onLineaccount…networkeDrecorDs…CyberspaCeChroniClesI like words. I like to throw out some random nexus of thoughts bouncing around my brain for you to enjoy, judge, copy, and/or be inspired by. Purpose. Happiness is where my mind is at. I am happy […]
Rock boTTom – kNockeD dowN and kickeD aRound
I hate this story but it is a HUGE part of my life story and must be told at some point so why not now? The most importantest: I have two daughters, Riley and Hope, now they are 12 and 7 respectively but at the time of the abduction by my ex Grayson (Hope’s dad, […]
clean time: months.days – 0.0 :: square one
Today would have been day 1 of my sobriety but I took Excedrin PM for my headache at work thinking it might make me a little sleepy but I’d be fine. Well probably exacerbated by not having slept last night I ended up being what I can only describe as a surreal high. I was […]
0 days – aNother bitiNg of duSt
Admitting my shit to you is a lot harder than I expected it to be on this one.I haven’t been lying but I haven’t been being honest either.Playing games that I hate, to avoid asking for help or whatever it is that I need of you, my reader. sobeRELAPSED sO that happened.picKed up this past […]
ready…. set….
My life is a semi-pretty mess right now and in the past 3 years I’ve experienced some of the hardest trials I’ve had to face in life but I will keep surviving if for no other reason than: I am frikkin awesome!! Through every hardship I knew for sure that I had three people who […]
LackadaisicaL wHimsy
I’m not quirky enough to be an oddity, I can just make being unpredictable and lazy sound fanciful. unique Can you appreciate that I couldn’t just say “crazy and lazy” thus I’m now Unpredictable, Crazy’s drug addicted niece? That is some funny timing though, I just get off of the phone with Demi, my “fun” […]
aLL the sobeR ladies, too(2)
This is the “Continued” portion of the TBCed aLL the sobeR ladies blog post I literally just published. I got cut off my the post which I didn’t know was a thing and now I do! Here’s to experiences and learning from them!! That sentence sums up the biggest flaw in the Women for Sobriety […]
aLL the sobeR ladies
I found a page called Women for Sobriety and they approach the Program a little bit differently than Alcoholics Anonymous which follows the 12 steps and 12 traditions, instead they promote their “The Program” aka The Women for Sobriety New Life Program (WSNLP to me now) and that involves 13 “Acceptance Statements.” They promote a […]
day 22 – revised silhouette
I found this quote and it has me perplexed. I’ve been trying to simplify it in order to define its meaning. It seems really obvious but then doesn’t seem to add up. Below I take the long way through my thinking and writing process to decipher this little gem. Word for word substitutions: Existence/soul/survival is […]
day 13 – got this
bumbled mumbo-jumbo jive turkeying outchya chops topsy-turvy I am beyond exhausted but doing very merrily. Cause of exhaustion:Yesterday my Auntie Demi called me to ask a favor which she was embarrassed about but, while it hasn’t been my experience (except with my dad), family should help family if they can so I felt she shouldn’t […]
Day 11 – bombarding ExCuSeS
My boyfriend started some sort of relationship with another female and I didn’t want to deal with the pain I felt and chose to relapse.
Day 4-10 – m.i.a. oops
I slept. I went to work from 6:00 am to 2:30 pm and then I came home and went straight to sleep until the following morning. That is the comedown from methamphetamine – a lot of sleeping. Thankfully not much else for withdrawal effects otherwise; a little depression usually but not so much this time […]
Day 3 – floundering
My brain is mush, I can’t seem to form full thoughts.All I want to do is sleep and eat and eat and eat and eat.Part of what gets me back to using is gaining weight. I hate gaining weight. I love being thin! Do I eat healthy to maintain my preferred figure? Of course not! […]
Day 1 – ready or not.
So grateful for having work to go to today because I would have been struggling to not go pick up and once again postpone the inevitable if I had been sitting around the house. I didn’t want to leave work, really, I was enjoying being productive and keeping myself busy. I didn’t even crave getting […]
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